It's all making sense now

For the last few days I have been in a really good place. I was just telling a few people that I am feeling bad- because after only 3 months I am kind of over the sad part of this divorce. I guess it really was the right thing to do...everything seems to be going as it should. Until today.

The kids went with Eric to the zoo yesterday. I was excited for them because we were going to be at competition all day with Sierra and they would be totally bored. Well this morning the kids called me and I started asking them about the day at the zoo. They of course had a great time with Daddy, CORILYNN & HER 2 KIDS!!! What?? That totally threw me for a loop. Corilynn is someone Eric works with. I am not sure if I have met her- if I had I don't remember. But I do know her name. Justice went to work with Eric about 3-4 months ago and after that day- Corilynn was all he could talk about. He couldn't wait to go back. Almost immediately after that we broke up.

I was furious about this whole date at the zoo. I can't believe he is having the kids go on dates with him already. I mean geez- at least let the dust settle. These poor kids have enough to worry about without having to wonder who this new family in their life is. I don't have all the facts...and just because Justice said they were making out doesn't mean that they were...it could have been an innocent kiss...but it is still completely and totally inappropriate at this point.

I have been crying all day about this-- I don't think it's because he's dating. I don't think it's because he didn't mention her at all during our break-up even though I asked his at least 6 times if he was seeing or interested in someone else...I think it's because it all makes sense now. And that makes me sad. It's hard to be left for another women once...but twice...

I am glad to be having these feelings. I need to be sad and angry and embarassed and devastated. It will only help me get over it and heal completely. The sad part is...I really loved him. And I wasn't loved in return. Will I ever trust a man again? Will I ever allow a man in my life again? I doubt it!!